Thursday, January 24, 2008

Frozen solid

Is anyone else unbelievably cold?? Seriously. Is it worse this year or do I just forget? Or maybe my bones are getting older and things like temperature are affecting me differently. Either way, it seems like I've been unable to get warm for the last two weeks. When Molly did my massage on Sunday, my hands and feet were like solid blocks of ice. I joked that my veins and arteries actually stop at my wrists and ankles and no blood flows to my fingers and toes. She said "Nah, you're just a girl." So perhaps my femininity keeps my core warm but lets my "lesser" elements go?

The other part of my chill is my total anti-social behavior. I feel like I haven't talked to anyone in months. I am studying, literally, any time I'm not in class or at yoga. My friends are being really respectful of my new schedule and aren't calling/emailing like they normally would. This is kind, but of course I miss them. There's a certain warmth that comes from knowing that you're being thought of and reminded of that through communication. I hope to soon have the time to reach back out to all of them; I have some friends I haven't talked to in months. But, the only thing I'd be able to say when I call would be "hey, I can't talk now but I wanted to let you know I haven't forgotten about you." I can't go out and do anything, certainly. The last time I went "out" was to Sweeney Todd on New Year's Day. And I went alone. Other than that, I have a vague recollection of a trip to Chipotle and Barnes and Noble with Erica sometime a few weeks ago, but that's it.

I know that I'll find a balance between classes, work and a life, but right now it's easier to be extreme. I have a test tonight on parts of the human body I had never heard of prior to two weeks ago. I'll get an A, I've studied my ass off, but it has come at a cost. Worth it? Most definitely...but it sure wasn't free.

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