The deadline for Mentor is this coming Friday. I, for the life of me, cannot decide if I want to submit this year. A huge part of me wants to do it. A *huge* part of me. I would love to work with Sheila O'Connor. I would love to do a reading. I would love to be able to finally identify myself, finally, as a winner. And I think that my writing is in a place where I could use some "new" education....beyond Zoetrope and beyond Loft classes.
The question is, can the Mentor Series give me what I'm looking for? I don't know. I've heard very mixed things about it from participants that I know and trust implicitly. I don't know that I'm ready for Mentor, or if I'll get out of it what I'm seeking. Frankly, I'm not quite sure what I'm looking for.
And so I'm at a crossroads. I guess it doesn't hurt anything to apply, except that I feel like I'm not submitting my best work. I'm reading through "Advanced Woods" and thinking how crappy it is, how no one in their right mind would accept it, and yet it's my best work.
Mentor could do great things for me as a writer. I don't think it can hurt me. So, the logical answer is yes, of course I should apply. But there's something in me that, for the first time, is holding me back from applying. Normally by this time--the last three years anyway--I would have been revising and finetuning for at least the last 2-3 months. I don't know what's changed in me.
So, there's a poll---give me your thoughts. Apply or no?