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Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Where to go, what to do?

Could someone please tell me what I want to do when I grow up? Because clearly I don't know. I want to:

--teach yoga
--teach English
--teach at the new alternative school
--be a writer
--be a funeral director

I can't do them all. But, I can't figure out which one I want to do more than any of the others. I'm standing on a hub with five spokes around me and I can only do one, really. I mean, I can teach yoga and teach English, or teach yoga and be a writer, but I want to do them all full time.

I know I've been working toward goals, but I'm at that stage where I've got fifty irons in the fire and they're all burning crispy because I can't tend to them properly. I'm all over the place, and that's not a good place to be.

So, tell me. What do I do? Which path do I persue?

3 comments:

TT. said...

Since you want to do them all, and it's not like you'd be doing something you hated for the rest of your life, I'm going to give you the old man response and say: do the one that makes the most money, has the best benefits, and offers the most stability. Also remember that you can continue to write and continue to practice yogo regardless of what you do to make a living.

Kelly said...

Yes...I will continue to write and yoga (and try not to dream of a life in which I could do either of those things full time).... I went to hear Jude Nutter read tonight, and on my way home I drew a connection between all of the things I want to do. They all contribute beauty, in some way, to the world. And I need to look at why I want to do that--it's the part of me that wants to be a singer and a dancer also. Apparently some part of me is actually an optimist. Go figure.

Kelly said...

And, by the way, teaching and funeral directing offer the exact same stability--both are necessary and fairly layoff resistant...and both pay really, really shitty. Of course I get a ton of time off with teaching....almost zero time off with funeral directing....