I have a confession...

Okay...so, we're a few weeks into 2010. In spite of a few down minutes/hours, I'm still digging hard core on 2010. But, I've been living a lie and I need to come clean.

I didn't make any resolutions. I said I would, then I said I had, and I did spend a lot of time thinking about what they might be if I wrote some down, but I stopped shy of the writing. So, I am resolutionless for the first time in my life (or, I guess, for the first time since I knew that resolutions existed).

There. Now you know my secret. And, to be honest, not having resolutions has left me feeling a little aimless. A little bit free-floating. Not a horrible thing, but I'm not exactly comfortable with it.

But... I've also been thinking about why we make resolutions. And, I'm wondering if sometimes this "Jan 1" businesses leads us to start to be overly critical of ourselves and seek out improvements where maybe none are needed. Oh, sure, we can always tweak a thing or two, but why do I always feel like I need a massive overhaul every year? I don't. I'm just fine. And I was just fine as I began last year too.

So, though I'm left feeling a little lost and a little unsure, I'm starting to come to terms with my lack of my normal 12 resolutions (one for each month). I accomplished a ton last year--and I plan to do the same this year. We'll see how it goes :-)

I am in love with 2010!!!

I know it's only the third day of the year, but so far I am so digging 2010 I could just marry it. Each day has been better than the one that came before it. Today I taught yoga to an amazing 33 people--31 in my CorePower Yoga class and 2 in my Yoga4You class. My 2 in Y4Y were "repeat offenders"--lovelies who have been to a class of mine before. I love seeing people come back--not just because it's people coming to yoga, but also because they liked my class enough that they said "sure, I'll take her class again." I know some people just look at the time--they don't care who the teacher is--but most people, I like to think, are like me and seek out specific teachers who they know will give them a good class.

I'm nervous because I need to start thinking about testing out to teach the next level of classes at CorePower. I know that I'm ready--I've been teaching yoga for nine months...my teacher training was, unbelievably, almost a year ago. My fear is in the details--the heat/humidity, the sense of the sequence, will it be hard enough, will it be too hard, will I run at the mouth with my dharma talk, will people hate the class...with the C1 it's easier--the sequence is set. But, in some ways, that should give me confidence--my talents comes in delivery and in style, not the creation of the set C1 sequence, so I know people come to my classes because of that delivery, that style, which will certainly translate to teaching a C2 level class. Ahhhhhhh, yoga.....