I heard about this on my way to writing group yesterday, had just seen the news break before I left my house. The reporter said "someone had been shot at a school" in Red Lake. I wasn't near my television or radio for the rest of the night, and when I woke up this morning at 4:45 to the radio DJ talking about 10 people dead, I thought "holy shit." I changed my tv to channel 3 (I sleep with it on) and there it is, blasted all over CNN news that this is the second deadliest shooting even in a U.S. school. That this is another Columbine.
In the last month guns have been too close. Two suicides in my high school both used guns to end their lives, and now this. I imagine as I walk through the hallway what it would be like to be shot. Have you ever imagined it? I mean *really* imagined it? Felt where the bullet would enter, burning, blinding pain, whether or not you would survive? Hot blood pouring out of you, would you be able to walk? Would you fall? Would you even feel it? I can't get the image out of my head of how easy, how *possible* this all is. And then I get to wondering about teaching.